Nature Lover

4 minutes 14 seconds

Nature Lover tells the story of the Earth Mother embodied in human form, experiencing deep, erotic love, and emotional connection when communing with her own natural form/nature.

Light from the Eye of God

8 minutes 40 seconds (the length of my radiation treatment)

Audio: 

Original recording of the sound of an Elekta Linac* machine shooting gamma rays used in treatment for my anal cancer mixed with Rainbow Voice by David Hykes from his 1983 album Hearing Solar Winds**. 

Visuals:

original video images captured by Leah Piepgras

gamma ray light particles filmed through fabric

all nature videos from the North Andover, MA area

(except the shot of the burned trees/sunshift: Superior National forest outside Ely, MN)

*Linac is short for linear particle accelerator: a type of particle accelerator that accelerates charged subatomic particles or ions to a high speed by subjecting them to a series of oscillating electric potentials along a linear beamline. Gamma rays are the same rays emitted by the sun during astronomical events like solar flares.

**I first heard this music when I was 16 in 1986.  It was a time of intense sorrow and it brought me great comfort through listening meditation.  I was shocked at the similarity to the sounds that I heard when receiving radiation.